I'll rethink what I wear next pajama day.

"When you're lost in those woods, it sometimes takes you a while to realize that you are lost. For the longest time, you can convince yourself that you've just wandered off the path, that you'll find your way back to the trail head any moment now. Then night falls again and again, and you still have no idea where you are, and its time to admit that you have bewildered yourself so far off the path that you don't even know from which direction the sun rises anymore."
- Elizabeth Gilbert

My student’s have agreed to an end of the year tea party; if, and only if, I master my British accent.

Tonight I am enjoying the sound of silence.

Whenever I feel like I'm under extreme amount of pressure, I sing "The Heat is On" in my mind. It helps me focus.

Pronouncing words incorrectly makes me happy. I don't know why. Like brian instead of brain, tarjay instead of Target, Ja-la-peno instead of Jalapeno, va-jite-ah instead of fajita. Even when I'm in the foulest of moods, silly things like that pour little bits of happy dust all over me and I smile inside. Little things eh?

I also like to rhyme nonsense words.

I'm trying to get back to that laid back person who was extremely pragmatic about the shittiness of life. The crapness of other people. And the appalling things that can happen. Ok that’s not entirely true. I just have to reboot and tune back into reality. And I really am trying to be a better person. In doing so, I've found that I care less and less about what other people think of me. Not because I'm not caring. Just because I'm sick of thinking about what I mean to other people. I can't control what other people think of you or say about me. But if I'm a good person then there should be no need to give it another thought. Mostly.

Which is how I've managed to get myself out of feeling, at times, extremely low. A good reality check from time to time does you the world of good. I've not been one to tolerate those who sit about complaining and won't do anything to change that.

Overall I'm optimistic.

"I must say a word about fear. It is life's only true opponent. Only fear can defeat life. It is a clever, treacherous adversary, how well I know. It has no decency, respects no law or convention, shows no mercy. It goes for your weakest spot, which it finds with unnerving ease. It begins in your mind, always ... so you must fight hard to express it. You must fight hard to shine the light of words upon it. Because if you don't, if your fear becomes a wordless darkness that you avoid, perhaps even manage to forget, you open yourself to further attacks of fear because you never truly fought the opponent who defeated you."
— Yann Martel

Today in class we were working on a review writing assignment. To practice we brainstormed ideas of how we spent our summer. I asked the girls how they thought I spent my summer. They said "playing video games in your Super Mario pajamas". I'll rethink what I wear next pajama day.

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I have successfully slept through the past three nights without waking up and eating. Yay Me!

I love the smell of bed. There'll be someone out there who will understand this statement. But I know what I mean and I quite like it.

Progress not perfection.

My tummy is rumbling. Quick! Put some cake in it!

"You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the one who'll decide where to go..."
-Dr. Suess