Harvesting the crops of awesome.

“When you start envying people and their nervous breakdowns, it’s probably time to start examining your own life a bit more closely.”

So I am in search for the perfect new wallet. I would like something that A) leather B) Has a lot of room for cards and C) is handcrafted by an independent designer. SO, I have been online browsing on Etsy and so far here are my favorites:

I know this one is very simplistic. But I like simple. I'm kinda into the color yellow, and since I don't wear the color yellow, I would love to have an everyday item that is yellow.

Because I love bows. 

This ones not leather, but I love it. I may be able to sacrifice leather for birds and trees.

I suppose that's all for now, but I'm not giving up the search quite yet.

“But somewhere along the line, something changed, and she became unbearably beautiful in her quiet grief, in the way she bravely embraced the new solitude of her life, in her serene acceptance of her own tragic circumstances, and something was born in me, something that comes alive only in her presence, that dreams unspeakable things and considers a wide range of absurd possibilities.”

I can’t say that I’m the most well adjusted individual out there but I don’t hate myself. We all have self esteem issues at one time in our lives or another but I can honestly say I love the person that is ME. Would I change anything? Sure, I could lose a few pounds and the hair issue bothers me but there’s not a whole lot to be done about it.

The hair issue being ‘Alopecia Areata”. If you’re curious of this condition click on this link: http://www.aocd.org/skin/dermatologic_diseases/alopecia_areata.html

Please do not be alarmed upon clicking the link. I do not want to start receiving sympathy or recycled human hair. I do not lose ALL of my hair. Usually one patch a year, typically the size of a quarter. 

"It was bewildering and humbling to keep discovering how many brave things people can fail to talk themselves out of doing."
-Rob Sheffield 

SO, I posted on Facebook about pessimistic gas station lady and her theory on the state of my being. But if you didn’t catch it:

Gas Station Lady: “Oh my god, you were born on November 28^th?”

Me: “Yeah…”

Gas Station Lady: “Oh gosh, I’m sorry. That’s a horrible day to be born on.”

Me: “Why is that?”

Gas Station Lady: “Because people born on November 28^th tend to live there life in a perpetual state of loneliness. I read all about it in a book. They spend their lives alone, because they can never find people who really, truly understand them.”

Me: “Hmmm”

Gas Station Lady: “Well, I sure hope that’s not your experience. Have a great day!”

To make matters worse, I have not been the happiest person lately. And I have spent the last week or so feeling pretty lonely, of which is my own doing….I’m just saying, she’s lucky I'm not suicidal.

“And the thing is, no matter how many times I have the dream, I’m always shocked and horrified, and this little part of me, the part that’s conscious of the dream, wonders how the hell I could have let it happen again, when I already know the dream.”

On an unrelated note, here's a card I'd like to send...

Dear Café Patron:

I don't care what people do in their own home but when you're at a public establishment among other people who share the daily paper, please don't take it with you to the bathroom. We all know what you're doing in there. Unless I get the paper before you, there's no way I'm going anywhere near it once you're done unless I'm wearing a Hazmat suit. Your cooperation in this matter is greatly appreciated.

Thank you.

"The hungry feeling and the lonely feeling merged until it was hard to tell them apart."
-Rob Sheffield

While you may think of yourself as a big-picture person, Monday brings details that simply cannot be ignored. Force yourself to deal with them quickly so you can get on with the rest of the week -- you'll need to spend some time pondering the big issues in a few days. Watch out for dates or other one-on-one interactions on Thursday or Friday, as you may be a bit grumpy and less able to present your good side. Forewarned is forearmed! The travel bug should bite you hard this weekend, and it's a good time to make plans to get out of town.

I think my horoscope is telling me to commit to the Labor Day camping trip. It would get me out of town.

She's releasing a live album November 22nd. I can't wait. It shall be an early birthday present to myself perhaps. I love this song, and it seems appropriate for today.

It's like forgetting the words to your favorite song.
You can't believe it; you were always singing along.
It was so easy and the words so sweet.
You can't remember; you try to move your feet.
It was so easy and the words so sweet.
You can't remember; you try to feel the beat...

"Her universe is such a big place full of so many galaxies-100 billion of them with 100 billion stars apiece which means 10 to the 22nd power stars-that it’s terrifying to think of the odds that we found each other. We want to freeze the perfect moment hold on to it at least long enough to understand it. But it dances on with us or without us so we jump in and try to keep up. The universe is expanding and we are just two of a billion stars."
-Rob Sheffield “Talking to Girls About Duran Duran”

It may be time to retire to my bed, where I can get lost in my book. I haven't been having the best days lately. Maybe with a good nights sleep I can start my Monday off harvesting the crops of awesome.
Here's hoping.