For the week of November 22nd:
Your redesigned thrust vectoring matrix is finally operational. Love those new nozzles! Moreover, you've managed to purge all the bugs from your cellular tracking pulse, and your high-resolution flux capacitor is retooled and as sexy as a digitally-remastered simulation of your first kiss. You're almost ready for take-off, Sagittarius! The most important task left to do is to realign your future shock absorbers. No more than a week from now, I expect you to be flying high and looking very, very good.
I can't say that I know everything, but I have learned a lot. As I near 30 there are many things that I am sure of:
1. Family is the most important
2. If one person doesn't love you, someone else will
3. Solitude is the best way to discover yourself
4. Animals make life worth it (I suppose kids do too, but I haven't gained that perspective yet)
5. It matters most, what you think of yourself
“You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world...but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices.”
-John Green
I miss my family more than I can often express. I believe that life begins and ends with our families. Getting older is somewhat a double edge sword. I believe whole heartedly that the older I get, the more awesome I get. However; I also know that the older I get, the older my parents get. I don't think my life or words could ever express how much I love them and they mean to me. At times it saddens me to know that we are states (although it often seems like worlds) away, and all the time we could be spending together now. I am so thankful for the wonderful childhood, parents, and values they instilled in me. Were things always perfect? No. But that's what life is. I believe they showed me the best a family can be, and I will be forever grateful and hopeful because of them.
“One swing set, well worn but structurally sound, seeks new home. Make memories with your kid or kids so that someday he or she or they will look into the backyard and feel the ache of sentimentality as desperately as I did this afternoon. It's all fragile and fleeting, dear reader, but with this swing set, your children will be introduced to the ups and downs of human life gently and safely, and may also learn the most important lesson of all: No matter how hard you kick, no matter how high you get, you can't go all the way around.”
"You gave me forever within the numbered days, and I am grateful"
-John Green
If I have become sure of another thing, it is that love is unconditional. I began thinking the other day.. what makes a person love another person? Although I did not come to a swift and clear conclusion, I know that love is not convincing another to love you. There must be a soul, or a heart of a person, that another can recognize, push to grow, and love unconditionally. So many people seem to build ideas of love on conditions (ie-- if they just did this, or just showed that) and I think that is so unrealistic. There are millions of people in this world, and if we build our love on conditions, we are bound to fail. I think there is something to be said for science, psychology, and the chemistry of two people... and to add to that hope and faith. When I say "faith" I don't mean in a religious context; the faith that this person, this person that you love despite their faults, will continue to grow and try to fulfill what the other needs. Life is about growth... about a single slice on each birthday, not an entire cake all at once, but the continual promise that love will be there and growth will be encouraged.... year after year.
“Some infinities are bigger than other infinities.”
- John Green
I am going to skip the next two points because I think I have talked about them enough in previous blogs. I have learned more about myself this year than ever... I thank my pets for their unconditional love and company.
"I'm on a roller coaster that only goes up my friend."
-John Green
It matters most what you think of yourself. I say this because no one is ever going to tell you who to be, or reassure you of how awesome you are. Should you have to explain this to a person? No. They should see it. In fact, if I were to propose the question "Why are you awesome?" I wouldn't expect a response. If another can't see it, or feel it, or believe it, than they probably aren't worth your time. You should never have to explain yourself to someone you love or care about...if they love you, they should feel the depth of you, all the faults, hopes, dreams, and lack-there-of combined.
“You could hear the wind in the leaves, and on that wind traveled the screams of the kids on the playground in the distance, little kids figuring out how to be alive, how to navigate a world that wasn't made for them by navigating a playground that was.”
-John Green
I have learned that there is no greater joy, love, or learning experience than to watch kids grow before your eyes...
And that is why, if someone asks me where my passion lies..? It's in a family, uncondtional love, self discovery, and youth.
Happy early 28th birthday to me.
